oh so drunk.

a wonderful time with betina, her boyfriend, and his dorm buddy eddie. we went down to the forum club, on san pablo - real close to hans’ place. kim was quite nice. when i’m sober - i’ll try to do a bon vivant thing on the place.

damn. i’m drunk.

hate to admit it….but i need it…..

i was so alone tonight,

i ended up at the rsf. alone. i tried walking to my hankido class and i panicked. i was all alone. i was confused. god help me. i prayed so hard, in the most desparate of lowlness.

watching monk - “can’t win them all!” because he never saw a a naked man….and monk totally wanted to get out of there. it was quite cute.

it hurts to be me. i don’t know why…..i want to be normal. desparetly so. god i’m pathetic. why am i still alive….i guess i don’t like myself.

hungry….use your wild wild west techniques..goddamn it kitty! ok…watching southpark now.

why should i still be here? so tainted….

so drunk….