this picture made me think of this Casablanca quote…
as Rick Blaine would say….
“What I’ve got to do, you can’t be any part of. Ilsa, I’m no good at being noble, but it doesn’t take much to see that the problems of three little people don’t amount to a hill of beans in this crazy world.”
it’s true….my problems are insignificant, in comparison to the life and death choices made by our troops over seas…..my problems barely register on the radar, in comparison to the thousands of Iraqi children struggling to get a bite to eat and to make it to the next day. what the hell do I know about despair?
it was so difficult to go to church yesterday. it didn’t feel like easter. i couldn’t sing for choir. but Father Peter’s homily kinda synched with me….he expressed how difficult it was to be cheerful, in the face of the war and all the other bad things happening out there…..he watched Amandla – for something uplifting….it was that and a lot more of him. It was amazing to hear about the songs of joy and despair, hope and pain…..“Amandla! is one of the first documentaries about the fight against apartheid in South Africa. More importantly, it tells the story in a way that is inspirational, funny, factual and humanizes the struggle.”
maybe someday i can find hope in myself.
all i know is that my heart is aching right now and i hate the person staring back at me in the mirror.