yesterday, my therapist told me she wondered if I had a drinking problem. she said she finally realized that my drinking exploits were not an addiction thing. i was just working through a lot of pain. i really enjoyed talking to her, the other day, because she helped me recognize how far i’ve come since those horrible April days. i feel stronger and now…..whenever i go out, i can truly enjoy myself and enjoy life. when i go to movies, treat myself to another J.D. Robb book, sit down with the girls from Sex in the City, drink – it’s not about numbing the pain – it’s about having fun. sure…there’s still stress in my life….with a touch of melancholy – but, I can handle that.