sunny skies are shining down on me….

sunny skies are shining down on me….

and i’m cherishing every minute of it 🙂

i wish i can bottle this sunshine up and take it with me to chicago….

trying to get some xmas shopping done….i’m at this coffee shop in san dimas – free wireless….nice….

last night – mark and i drove down to la – i took the corolla and mark took th 10-feet budget truck… was trippy to be driving by myself….we got in pretty late to la….mark thought glendale looked beautiful, as we drove down the 134….we almost got separated – i forgot that the 57 was connected to the 210 – not the 60…..some folks think it’s a bit odd that we refer to our freeways with the definite article: “the” ……that’s just how i know them.

we dropped off the truck at my ninang’s house and the went west on the 210 to my bro’s place. one car lot proclaimed it was 34 degrees outside. eeck! this is so. cal! it shouldn’t be close or below freezing! but we were going through the valley, so it’s understandable…..

i did some unexpected crying this week… co-workers chipped in for my new toy – a dell dj jukebox….i squealed with delight when i unwrapped this amazing going away gift, during our staff party. it was a high pitched one. i am amazed that folks chipped in for this. amazed and touched. it was lovely. mark wrapped it up in some left over paper from the lab. that was a lovely surprise. i must admit though, that it ties with the equally lovely card i got from ccstaff and the cons. when i left the lab that evening – i knew it was for good…..sure, i have a telecommuting agreement now….but it’s going to be some time before i stepped foot at haas…..out on the balcony – i bursted out crying – i know i’ll miss all the cool people i work with…..and all the cons. i poured so much of myself into this job, it just left me raw, to say good-bye. to leave my job of 4 1/2 years.

i had a lovely dinner party at jupiters on sat night. david drove up to be apart of the festivties… first, it was just mark, david, and myself….then everybody showed up – an hour later. i was so happy to get a chance to say good-bye….one more time. we drank, had pizza, some gave gifts, and more importantly – it gave me one more chance to imprint them into my heart. betina, hans, mike, nicole, david, priscilla, victor, rosa, linda, wes, susan – i’ll miss you all so very much. each time somebody left the table – to go on to other evening engagements – i teared up. betina and hans made me promise to return for their wedding next summer. it was so hard to say good-bye to Betina, when she has known me at my highest and at my worst…..her love is unconditional and i’m humbled by her generosity.

later, dave, david, mark, wes, and myself jammed over ot cafe jun for some karoke. we went through an extensive playlist – from weezer to britney. it was so much fun. that night was perfect. it was fun….i got to sing….and everyone enjoyed themselves…..the five of us all joined in for queen’s bohemian rhapsody – that was my highlight for the evening.

on sunday – my last mass….i sand breath of heaven, as a solo – with a lovely harmony by lara…..i also cried there. i was terrified to be in front of that mic, but once i heard lara’s accompaniment – i settled down a bit. then i couldn’t stop crying, after the song finished up. later, the choir went off for dinner at the blue nile. mikey and rebecca headed back from napa to join us. wes couldn’t go. i said good-bye to him at church. my God. that was hard. it was like being punched in the gut. i’ve known him since our hall ass. days at unit 3 – he’s been my rock….and later one of my closest friends. it just hit me that i won’t be able to lean on him, when i’m in chicago.

hell – i know i’ll be a teary mess when i say good-bye to mark in chicago….but at least we will be together, in spirit. mark has been so supportive of me – i don’t know if i could have kept my sanity – in the middle of this moving chaos – without him.

ok – time to jump around a bit.

had a funky dream last night! i had some leftover ethiopian food and popcorn chicken, for the trip down to la…..could be my mind churning over that yummy combination…..i’m being saracastic there….

so – first, i’m at a conference with my co-workers. some technology thing – i got super bored – so i stepped out, found a bar, and had a martini. another co-worker ditched the session and joined me at the bar. he started to hit on me. i tried to decline gracefully. mark finally came and saved me from this guy’s affections.

scene changes to my high school – now the site of our lab’s operations. another co-worker started talking to me about marriage. he got me to admit that under different circumstances, we could have hooked up and gotten married. then it got busy – i was suppose to organize something, but i couldn’t remember what. customers bogged me down with questions – then i realized that this co-worker was married. his wife cornered me about that conversation – i said i would straighten him out – it was suppose to be purely speculation. then one of my friends came up to me, to talk about my relationships – she was nude, except for a towel around her waist. i was shocked – i asked her to wrap up and she covered up her chest with the towel. then my student workers showed me a new desktop solution – it was made out of cartons, the ones that carry strawberries in the market. i thought it was a piece of crap. they thought it was the coolest invention.