one for my blog….

a place to put down my roots

for photo friday….

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i took this picture last May – during my birthday train trip in Napa.

even though my cousin says this movie reminds her of the stupid Keanu Reeves movie – A Walk in the Clouds – i thought this pix made sense for me.

today’s theme is desire. due to the changes in my life – all the upheaval and all the chaos of moving – I desire a place to put down roots – a place I can call home . i left job – and my heart numbed a bit – it was place i poured a lot of heart into, for the last 4 years. i left friends behind, in the bay area – and each good-bye squeezed my heart into pulsing aches. i’m about to say good-bye to my family and i know that will hurt even more……saying good-bye to Mark – a bittersweet moment that I dread – more than anything.

i know i can home to my family. i know i will have a home in Mark’s heart. i just hope that i can make that sense of home a reality. something warm enough to comfort me as i’m freezing my ass of for the sake of my degree- at Northwestern.

I’ll Be Home For Christmas

I’m dreaming tonight of the place I love
Even more then I usually do
And although I know it’s a long road back

This I promise you

Well, I’ll be home for Christmas
You can plan on me
So please have snow and lots of mistletoe
And presents under the tree

Oh Christmas Eve will find me
Where the love life is
I’ll be home for Christmas

If only in my dreams

You know Christmas Eve will find me
Where the love life is
Darling I’ll be home for Christmas
If only in my dreams
Oh if only in my dreams