what i learned today…

that all i’m good for is to be somebody’s tech person. apparently i have not learned anything about journalism, reporting, editing or news value judgement – or anything else worth talking about. so – i suppose it makes sense that folks don’t see any need to hear what i have to say or do.

why don’t just go out and shoot myself…..

i just find some horrible and illogical parallels to the tramua i experience a year ago….no matter what i say, no matter how people i try to report the truth to….it doesn’t matter what happened….it doesn’t matter that i was broken. he’s still out there – hurting people. nobody can catch him….my detective just filed a report to the DA….it took almost a year for him to finally confess to what happened….and now the DA will have to consider his word versus my own…….he said it was consensual….how could it be, when i felt so powerless? i have no idea if he would have done worse, if i protested? i was in no position to get-up.

but despite this…..he calls it consensual…..

it doesn’t matter what i say or what i do……

people will do as they please…..

and some will be free to keep hurting girls who won’t find out tilll it’s too late…