ok…my last posting was a bit judgemental…but one thing Medill has taught me – most wanna-be journalists have an air of self-righteousness…
there are some amazingls sweet people here – people who make me feel welcomed….people who don’t use me….people who want me to hang out….people who listen….
i suppose it’s easier to dwell on the other folks and my broadcast class who use me like wallpaper.
there are some girls who felt bad my wallet was stolen. others actually lent me some cash so i could afford to take the el train down to the newsroom. i felt so ashamed to ask for these loans….but it was no big deal. i also paid them back when i got my new check card.
one girl made some peanut butter munchies and offered me some….she wanted to make sure i was ok….she was one of the only people who asked me if I got everything back….i was touched.
another girl was concerned about my eating habits. she read i wasn’t eating last quarter….she e-mailed me some good advice on making meals. she also followed-up with a phone call to make sure i know she cares.
so….i needed to get those angry words out last night….but i also recognize that everyone here does not hold any true malice….i’m paranoid and i expect the worse. some folks have been truly sympathetic. those who are wrapped up in their own problems are not bad people. they just have difficulty seeing things from another pair of eyes.
so – it’s like the real world – people who care and people who don’t know how to care about anybody other than themselves.
it’s ok. i’m fine.