i guess i’m the only one responsible for myself….betina only wants to know if i’m at the point of killing myself. ditto with my cousin – one of the only people in my family who knows what happened to me.
buffy…i WANT to be buffy….sound so loud….called betina and jennie….told them don’t worry….i’ll take care of myself……i’ll just take care of myself…finished all wine…wished Mark would …he isn’t online. guess he doesn’t want to help me….damn it,…..want to enjoy myself…..pretend i’m a lady. pretend i’m beautiful…guess i’m now.