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vegas baby…..78 degrees…

it’s raining in So. Cal…..the forecasters are calling for a wet Xmas….kinda disappointing – since I hoped for one more winter with sunshine and palm trees….maybe cali’s sad to see me leave the state πŸ™‚

I went to Vegas this weekend. I also visited my second Fry’s this weekend…..sheesh….I’m lookin’ lika geek πŸ™

my cousin bought a house in vegas and her mom’s visiting from the phillippines. she likes to keep the house temp at 78 degrees.

real estate is so damn affordable in the desert – and hell, it’s not that cold out in Nevada…..i have to remind myself about the scorching temps during the summertime….that should be enough to end that temptation to re-locate to Vegas, after graduation…..we had dinner at the flamingo hilton – we only went through the casino for about 15 minutes and my clothes are now pretty much unwearable – too much damn smoking.


my cousin has a new man in her life – freddy – he’s the cutest little terrier…..her college instructor found freddy on the freeway – somebody just abandoned this dog out there – and it was a miracle he survived. so her teacher offered him to anyone in the class and my cousin volunteered. he’s about five year’s old and totally trained. he’ll stay when you ask him to stay and he won’t potty in the house. freddy’s still pretty insecure – he starts growling if you try to put him down, after he’s been cradled in your arms for a bit.

watching mr. bean

yesterday, my dad asked me if i was ready for Chicago – i said sure – better now than never.

i love living here – i talked to jen about the local scene for news and politics in San Diego. According to Jennie – all newscasts end up stumbling over something – it was a rare thing for them to go through the script without screwing up. well, given that report – i may have a chance of breaking into news down here. i also heard from Scott that it’s kinda expensive to live down here.

we were watching national lampoon’s xmas vacation….

but now jennie wants to watch nemo again…..and then she popped it out again……um…i think i got her a little annoyed.

it was quite lovely today….we headed over to coronado with my parents – big military town. apparently the rest of san diego use to be all military, all the time. coronado looked cute, in a very newport way. we had breakfast at the hotel del coronado – site of marilyn monroe’s some like it hot. i just saw this film a few months ago – i remember when monroe’s girl band arrived at the hotel del mar and when tony curtis scaled the hotel walls to sneak back into his room. funny movie.

the hotel was decked out for the holidays – hopefully i can get those uploaded – i forgot the stupid usb cable in my car. but i did get my dad’s snazzy new phone to send me this pix.



one for my blog….

a place to put down my roots

for photo friday….


i took this picture last May – during my birthday train trip in Napa.

even though my cousin says this movie reminds her of the stupid Keanu Reeves movie – A Walk in the Clouds – i thought this pix made sense for me.

today’s theme is desire. due to the changes in my life – all the upheaval and all the chaos of moving – I desire a place to put down roots – a place I can call home . i left job – and my heart numbed a bit – it was place i poured a lot of heart into, for the last 4 years. i left friends behind, in the bay area – and each good-bye squeezed my heart into pulsing aches. i’m about to say good-bye to my family and i know that will hurt even more……saying good-bye to Mark – a bittersweet moment that I dread – more than anything.

i know i can home to my family. i know i will have a home in Mark’s heart. i just hope that i can make that sense of home a reality. something warm enough to comfort me as i’m freezing my ass of for the sake of my degree- at Northwestern.

I’ll Be Home For Christmas

I’m dreaming tonight of the place I love
Even more then I usually do
And although I know it’s a long road back

This I promise you

Well, I’ll be home for Christmas
You can plan on me
So please have snow and lots of mistletoe
And presents under the tree

Oh Christmas Eve will find me
Where the love life is
I’ll be home for Christmas

If only in my dreams

You know Christmas Eve will find me
Where the love life is
Darling I’ll be home for Christmas
If only in my dreams
Oh if only in my dreams



being in love – is bliss for me πŸ™‚

from theme thursday
December 18, 2003 – Bliss – “Webster’s defines bliss as ‘a state of extreme happiness,’ and I have always loved the quotation by Joseph Campbell: “Follow your bliss.” So for the theme it could either be something that makes you (or that you do that makes you) feel extremely happy.” – Myla

stil sunny….

i unloaded the truck this afternoon with my dad…he said i drove to slow and that it wasn’t such a big deal to drive a ten-foot truck. he said he once drove a truck at his old job….this was back when unocal was laying everybody off. he was one of the few people left unscathed by the massive lay-offs – he was absorbed into another department. some asshole tried to go off on a power trip on my dad – insisted he drive a truck down to another location. it was manual and my dad didn’t know how to drive stick. the asshole didn’t care. so – my dad drove the truck down imperial highway. thankfully, he didn’t get killed on that trip.

the asshole ended up losing his job – for putting my dad in such a dangerous situation.

i also had an odd dream the other night.

i was in vegas – and it was late at night…..but the sun was still shining out. wes was dragging me and some other folks from one casino to another – waiting for the jackpot to land in his lap. i just about had it, with all the walking. as we stepped into Caesar’s Palace – i saw Mark and Gau and more friends. I was happy to see them, but I didn’t want to do anymore gambling. i was about to head up to my room – then mark grabbed the back of my pants and spun me into his arms. it felt wonderful to be hugged by him. he grabbed so hard, that the elastic broke in my waist band – and my pants almost fell off. i was giggling – it didn ‘t bother me that he almost ripped my pants off. he convinced me to follow his group into the casino. i walked for a bit – but my legs were killing me. i lagged behind too much and lost them. i stopped by an appetizer table and ate a sausage wrapped in bacon.

a cocktail waitress said they’re probably heading to the other side of the casino – to the younger crowd. i convinced her to drive there and show me where it was. we stepped out of the casino and drove to the back of the casino. i couldn’t find a place to park my car. there was some spaces at the edge of a ravine. my car transformed into a scooter – i convinced the waitress to jump down the ravine and i would roll my scooter to her, so she could park it. on the left side was a handicap space. on the other side was scooter parking. so that’s where she parked it.

sunny skies are shining down on me….

sunny skies are shining down on me….

and i’m cherishing every minute of it πŸ™‚

i wish i can bottle this sunshine up and take it with me to chicago….

trying to get some xmas shopping done….i’m at this coffee shop in san dimas – free wireless….nice….

last night – mark and i drove down to la – i took the corolla and mark took th 10-feet budget truck… was trippy to be driving by myself….we got in pretty late to la….mark thought glendale looked beautiful, as we drove down the 134….we almost got separated – i forgot that the 57 was connected to the 210 – not the 60…..some folks think it’s a bit odd that we refer to our freeways with the definite article: “the” ……that’s just how i know them.

we dropped off the truck at my ninang’s house and the went west on the 210 to my bro’s place. one car lot proclaimed it was 34 degrees outside. eeck! this is so. cal! it shouldn’t be close or below freezing! but we were going through the valley, so it’s understandable…..

i did some unexpected crying this week… co-workers chipped in for my new toy – a dell dj jukebox….i squealed with delight when i unwrapped this amazing going away gift, during our staff party. it was a high pitched one. i am amazed that folks chipped in for this. amazed and touched. it was lovely. mark wrapped it up in some left over paper from the lab. that was a lovely surprise. i must admit though, that it ties with the equally lovely card i got from ccstaff and the cons. when i left the lab that evening – i knew it was for good…..sure, i have a telecommuting agreement now….but it’s going to be some time before i stepped foot at haas…..out on the balcony – i bursted out crying – i know i’ll miss all the cool people i work with…..and all the cons. i poured so much of myself into this job, it just left me raw, to say good-bye. to leave my job of 4 1/2 years.

i had a lovely dinner party at jupiters on sat night. david drove up to be apart of the festivties… first, it was just mark, david, and myself….then everybody showed up – an hour later. i was so happy to get a chance to say good-bye….one more time. we drank, had pizza, some gave gifts, and more importantly – it gave me one more chance to imprint them into my heart. betina, hans, mike, nicole, david, priscilla, victor, rosa, linda, wes, susan – i’ll miss you all so very much. each time somebody left the table – to go on to other evening engagements – i teared up. betina and hans made me promise to return for their wedding next summer. it was so hard to say good-bye to Betina, when she has known me at my highest and at my worst…..her love is unconditional and i’m humbled by her generosity.

later, dave, david, mark, wes, and myself jammed over ot cafe jun for some karoke. we went through an extensive playlist – from weezer to britney. it was so much fun. that night was perfect. it was fun….i got to sing….and everyone enjoyed themselves…..the five of us all joined in for queen’s bohemian rhapsody – that was my highlight for the evening.

on sunday – my last mass….i sand breath of heaven, as a solo – with a lovely harmony by lara…..i also cried there. i was terrified to be in front of that mic, but once i heard lara’s accompaniment – i settled down a bit. then i couldn’t stop crying, after the song finished up. later, the choir went off for dinner at the blue nile. mikey and rebecca headed back from napa to join us. wes couldn’t go. i said good-bye to him at church. my God. that was hard. it was like being punched in the gut. i’ve known him since our hall ass. days at unit 3 – he’s been my rock….and later one of my closest friends. it just hit me that i won’t be able to lean on him, when i’m in chicago.

hell – i know i’ll be a teary mess when i say good-bye to mark in chicago….but at least we will be together, in spirit. mark has been so supportive of me – i don’t know if i could have kept my sanity – in the middle of this moving chaos – without him.

ok – time to jump around a bit.

had a funky dream last night! i had some leftover ethiopian food and popcorn chicken, for the trip down to la…..could be my mind churning over that yummy combination…..i’m being saracastic there….

so – first, i’m at a conference with my co-workers. some technology thing – i got super bored – so i stepped out, found a bar, and had a martini. another co-worker ditched the session and joined me at the bar. he started to hit on me. i tried to decline gracefully. mark finally came and saved me from this guy’s affections.

scene changes to my high school – now the site of our lab’s operations. another co-worker started talking to me about marriage. he got me to admit that under different circumstances, we could have hooked up and gotten married. then it got busy – i was suppose to organize something, but i couldn’t remember what. customers bogged me down with questions – then i realized that this co-worker was married. his wife cornered me about that conversation – i said i would straighten him out – it was suppose to be purely speculation. then one of my friends came up to me, to talk about my relationships – she was nude, except for a towel around her waist. i was shocked – i asked her to wrap up and she covered up her chest with the towel. then my student workers showed me a new desktop solution – it was made out of cartons, the ones that carry strawberries in the market. i thought it was a piece of crap. they thought it was the coolest invention.

photo friday – childhood

the challenge for today’s photo friday is childhood.

both my parents worked – still do – and they couldn’t be at home with me. so my lola, left her family and everyone she knew in the Philippines for the States- to take care of her son’s first-born daughter. my dad told me she believed that i would need strong legs – so as a baby, she would rub special Chinese oils, all over my limbs…..i suppose it was nice to have that boost, when I competed in figure skating. as a child, i remember watching a tv ad for Rice-a-Roni and i turned down my nose at the plain rice and adobo she would serve for lunch. instead, i wanted butter on my rice – just like the golden grains i saw on TV. so she added a pat of butter onto the cooked rice. yeah, i was a stupid kid. i thought it tasted great.

as a child, i would tell my lola to go outside and take a break. then i would re-arrange all the furniture in the living room. whatever i could push around. i thought it was a clever joke. one day – my lola re-arranged the furniture
before i got to them. then she left for outside, when i asked her to go. then – i procceed to put the clean-up the room and put the furniture back in their orginal positions.

theme thursday – discipline


my brother is one of the most disciplined human beings i know. instead of taking the ROTC route – he first enlisted with the National Guard – and then spent a few years to become an officer. i remember him, whenever i feel like letting myself slack – from duty, from work, and from myself. not just in the army – he studied so hard in college – it broke my heart to hear how some asshole jacked up the curve for the rest of his class – and despite all that studying – it only made him average. that sucked. but it didn’t break him. he inspires me to be strong.

i think he got it from our mom – whose also pictured here. she’s the strongest woman i know – she left everything she knew behind, in the Philippines – for a chance to make a better life for her family – for my brother and myself. she works so damn hard – and she never makes any excuses for herself.

from theme thursday: December 11, 2003 – Discipline – Joy sent in this week’s theme. She wrote, “From the most excruciating military training obstacle course to the simple annoyance of your alarm clock — we all encounter the need for daily discipline as part of our survival. Is the first image that comes to mind The Citadel or a pile of dirty dishes or something else?”